Why can't I just let go?

I woke up this morning with an overwhelming feeling of not being in control. WHAT am I trying so hard to be in control of? WHY can’t I let go, and simply be? HOW do I get over whatever it is that is consuming my thoughts and feelings?

I had a funny dream last night; a lot was going on. I don’t remember all the details, but for once I could make sense of my dream, and I knew exactly what each thing and what each person represented based on how I feel and what is going on in my life currently. It’s nothing profound and if I told you the dream, I’m sure you’d come to the same conclusions.

But now the question is, how do I wake up so I feel rejuvenated not drained? Why does my body ache when I get up?

I need to get out of this feeling I feel so trapped in.

"On the World" -Rumi

The world is a mountain
Whatever you say, good or bad, it will echo it back to you
Don't say I sang nicely and mountain echoed an ugly voice…
That is not possible

The human intellect is a place where hesitation and uncertainty take root
There is no way to overcome this hesitation…except by falling in love

To reach the sea and be happy with a jug water is a waste
The sea that has pearls…
And a hundred thousand other precious things.

The world we live in...

This might leave you feeling depressed ...
But, the hope that never leaves the family is quite inspiring
This short film won the Berlin International Film Festival in 2006.

http://www.cultureunplugged.com/play/1081/Chicken-a-la-Carte

Easter in London, Christmas in Delhi

I had been wanting to see St. Paul’s Cathedral in London for a while, so decided to go to an Easter service. It was quiet, kind of somber, and not very lively. In no way did the service resemble the Christmas mass I attended in Delhi, but for some reason yesterday, I couldn’t help but smile as I thought of Christmas in Delhi. In India, everything has a way of turning into a festive spectacle.

The video is what was going on outside the church…
(jingle bells in hindi…for non-hindi speakers)
Enjoy… :)

"They say watch what you ask for,
Cause you might receive
But if you ask me tomorrow,
I'd say the same thing"

-India Arie